., my despair… at the same time my confessions…
., at first it all seems so fine, so almost perfect and thought of that moment i could move on and start my life all over again after mah last one… i found out that after all between us there’s a secret behind all this… is he only using me or is he just truly inlove with me… but all possible things came into mah mind, thinking that love is unconditional but does it have to be being a martyr??? if love is powerful then its pulling way, 
way down coz weakness is gaining on me… i easily fall inlove with someone, player if you call it… people think im easy and cheap…. that’s what they think.. i maybe easy but not CHEAP!!! i have relationship, not just one but a few all at the same time…. i become very attached to guys.. but after all my KARMAS and mah mistakes… i’ve changed.. i’ve learned all from that….. people can change, does it all people change??? 
changes came into my life… then i met SJ the guy i love… i became stick to one… i did all for him… so sweet to him, caring… but all that changed when i found out his SECRET… "walang sekretong hindi nabubunyag…!" but despite all that im willing to love him, still welcome him into my life, even though he made mistakes like that… love trully conquers all even my PRIDE… mah message to him, " bhie, things can be different 
from now on but im willing to give mah heart, mah attention, mah thoughts… bhie you know i love you so much but if you dont feel the same way about me nemore… bhie just always remember that i will never forget you and you will always be mah bhabhieb0o_22…! i love you so much…!" thanks to all of mah friends who supports me and care for me.,.. i love you all! i just followed mah heart (hypothalamus)…! understand me guys…. i really love this guy… sana nga pumayag na lang meng makipaghiwalay siya sa girl na yun!!! damn it!!!!
August 26th, 2006 at 8:13 am
my dear sist ur ryt love do conquers all but u must always remember love moves in different ways..it is THE SWEETEST thing in the world but the fucking thing can also be the PAINFUL one..guys are guys,,they r sweet at first but still hides little of their bullshit fantacies in life..they play and never cares afterwards…you did ur best but never appreciated..SJ maybe just one of gods way of teaching ur easy-to-fall HEART to know when&who is the right one to LOVE..i’ve done my part as ur friend..i gve my opinions and gve my advices and i understand why u still choose to follow what ur heart desires..but please be careful with ur heart its not a toy that u can throw wen u get rid of it..its not a trash that u can throw wen u feel not to like it..its not a poem that u can ignore wen u don’t feel the msg of it…BUT it’s a LIFE that u must live to the fullest until the end of time…like a mom that cares,a dad that works,a sister to lean on…remember one thing,without it you can never live the life u choose to have right now..
LIFE,
TAKE IT!
UNDERSTAND IT!
APPRECIATE IT!
ENJOY IT!
and most of all…
LEARN FROM IT!
evryone needs company my friend but u must always consider urself as one part of it..a company to love but MUST NOT BE ABUSED! so, please take good care of ur heart..always be wise to everyone..love u